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| YEHEY!!! |
[08 Dec 2004|01:24am] |
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I'm not supposed to be updating my journal today, since I havn't done yet my homework for Pasadilla and I still hav econmet tomorrow at 1030. I don't have eviews yet (still downloading it), so I can't do my HW anyway. hahaha... How was my day? GREAT!!! WE PLACED FIRST IN OUR DIVISION IN THE COMPETITION THAT THE CHORALE JOINED IN PASIG! (shit ang daming in!!! hehehe pakirephrase nalang...) That means that we qualified for the finals to be held this saturday! :D sana tuloy-tuloy na 'to... all the way to being the new champs!!! :D But I wasn't really that jubilant when we took first place earlier. For me that's nothing. Well I was happy, but not that jubilant. For me the real competition is on saturday, wherein we will face the champions of the other divisions, and the defending champion. I just hope that we'll be able to take that one.
Bad trip my room's so dusty!!! may gnawa kse na construction dito knina... nagliha sila then pintura.. allergic pa naman ako sa dust... grrr...
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| Confession |
[05 Dec 2004|10:45pm] |
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It's been a long while since I last went to confession. It has been 2 years??? Well I do believe in confession. I do believe in catholic faith, but the thing is, i'm not practicing it. I don't really go to mass every sunday. Tinatamad ako eh... It's not that I don't believe in going to masses or to confession, or in praying every night. It's just that I feel distant to God right now. Well, what's the sense of going to confession if I know that I'm gonna repeat my sins over and over again right? Before going to confession, I want to be really sorry for my sins. Hindi naman ako plastic eh. But I'm not... Ewan ko... pero I think I should make the effort to be closer to Him. And that will only be if I go to confession. And I think that's the only thing that will give me peace of mind...
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| New email / friendster account! :P |
[05 Dec 2004|10:16pm] |
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Tagal ko nang hindi nakakasulat dito ha... hehe.. anyway, I just made my new friendster account. Full na kse yung isa eh. So because of that, i had to make another email add. astig, i was able to find another site which offers 1 gb email for free. Wanna check it out? just go to www.walla.com... ang galing. So there, i have a 1 gb email account, and it's not gmail! and i'm proud of it! hehe... pero, anong gamit saken nun? feeling ko wala, pang friendster lang. hehe... So guys, para naman may friends ako sa friendster, add nyo ocv678@walla.com... hehe :P
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| Oo nga pala.. |
[30 Nov 2004|11:30am] |
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May cutie akong nakilala sa power-up. Pagkakaalam ko BF nya yung isa sa mga mutant... nde ko alam kung sya din mutant... hayup ang cute nya talaga... :P hehe... bad trip nga lang full na friendster account nya!!! hehehe
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| I'm Back... |
[30 Nov 2004|10:51am] |
...from Ilocos. I've been there these past three days. Well anyway the trip was okay. actually we just went to ilocos to eat and sleep!!! hehehe well nothing much happened. Went to a mass in which we couldn't understand a thing. Astig din... may broken pew sa harap ko, and i was watching how people sat there, not knowing the pew's broken and then ayun... you could have seen the look in their faces... parang wow mali! hehe... i tried to warn them pero ang hirap! nde cla makaintindi ng tagalog eh...
Anyway ayun, we went to Lapog, then to my Lola's bday, then to Vigan. Bought pasalubong there. Grabe hirap mamili ng pasalubong! hehe dunno kung baket ako nahirapan...
Anyway, to sum up everything, we went to ilocos to pig out and watch movies... hehehe
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| La lang... |
[23 Nov 2004|11:17pm] |
I just watched Feng Shui. May bago akong trip... manood ng movie sa room ko! hehe... nyway ayun, watched White Chicks before going to power-up knina, then eto kakatapos lang manood ng Feng Shui, with no one else in my room, with the door closed, and the lights turned off.... creepy... freaked the shit out of me... It's a good movie though... masarap ulitin... anyway I was also able to finish my OPM compilation earlier. Asteeg... pwede ko siguro tong ibenta... ganda ng selections... (tnx to Teejay! =) )...
Ei you... I miss you... la lang...
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| This sucks... |
[22 Nov 2004|05:28pm] |
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I just woke up. Hassle!!! I'm sick!!! I have colds and cough, sore throat, and from time to time, flu. WAAAH!!! Shit hassle na sore throat to... Hirap kumain... matakaw pa naman ako... Hirap din magsalita... Madaldal pa naman din ako... haaay badtrip... and hindi pa ako makapagyosi. Sa bagay, i'm planning to quit naman tlga... promise after ng 3 day hump, tuloy-tuloy na... wag nga lang sana ako magkaron ng iniisip... hehe... baka mapayosi...
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| Unicorn |
[21 Nov 2004|11:52pm] |
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I just finished watching "The Terminal". It's a really good movie. Ganda... Astig... Pero nga lang, it reminded me of one harsh reality - that you could not get everything (or everyone) you like, or love, even if you tried to do everything... You may wait for months, years, or even decades, but still end up with nothing. Me and my bestfriend (jeff crisolo) call this something (or someone) that one really wants but he just couldn't get as one's "unicorn". We got this term from the movie "Gone in 60 seconds", wherein Nicolas Cage's unicorn is the 1969 Shelby GT 500. He's a really good driver, and when it comes to boosting cars, he's the man. He can steal any car that he wants. But by some twist of fate, whenever he tries to get this car, he ends up with nothing but frustration. I once had a unicorn. There's this girl that I liked so much. I liked her for three years. Did everything that I could just to see her. I tried to move on, but failed. I'm glad that after 5 years, that's not the case anymore. I've learned to let go. I just hope that this time around, I won't be as stupid as I was before.
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[18 Nov 2004|10:48pm] |
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Just came from power-up. dun ako nagpark eh, mahal kse sa school... hehehe... anyway went to school for the chorale rehearsals... tomorrow's gonna be a big day. It's the eliminations of the chorale competition that we just joined. Hope we make it... la lang... sa totoo lang, i would like the chorale to prove something. I wan't us to win para makita naman ng school that we are deserving for whatever support that they are giving and gonna give us. Dami din kasing nakakaasar na mga tao sa UA&P. I remember, there's this girl who asked us how did our past competition go... so ayun, syempre we said we didn't win... she said. "Kasi..." WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN??? alam mo yun, hindi man lang magsabi ng, "Okay lang yan... Kaya nyo na yan next time!!!" fuckin' people... Masyado makitid utak...
Anyway, I talked to her before going to the rehearsals. La lang, hindi kasi ako mapalagay... Talagang gusto ko nang sabihin... So there, told her what I feel, and why i've been acting that way lately. Okay naman... masaya din na makapagrelease... Well it's good to know that we're all good. :D pero bad trip paren, nachope paren ako... Saying that I like her is an understatement... oh well...
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| My stupid mouth |
[18 Nov 2004|01:58pm] |
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I was just going through my email and then I encountered this...
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POWER OF THE TONGUE
The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit." -- Proverbs 18:21
None of us could go back and count the number of words we have said to people throughout our lives. That would be impossible to remember. We have all said words that are very encouraging to others, but we have also said many words that have been hurtful and damaging, too. I don't know about you, but I know that I've said some things to people in my lifetime that I would go back in a minute to take back or rephrase. We are human beings. Many times, we don't realize what we're saying to people or how our tone is coming across. It's not always "what" you say, it 's more of "how" you say it. I had to learn this growing up and even to this day. And....probably will be learning it for the rest of my life! All of us will. This is a topic that each of us can relate to and no one is exempted. There is not a person in this world that has not said something hurtful to another. We are all guilty of using! hurtful and damaging words.
Even though we can ask forgiveness from God and from the people we hurt, we can never take back what we've said. I've personally learned this in my marriage relationship. Those of you who are married are probably nodding in agreement because you've been there for years. My wife and I have come to learn very quickly that marriage is a lot of work, but it's so well worth the time taking to make sure communication is working. Communication is such an important part of life. Certainly in marriage, but not just in marriage. We all use communication in our various relationships with others. Sometimes we end up verbally hurting the ones we love the most. I might be in a cranky mood and I get snappy. Or there are just times when the enemy uses a situation to bring hurtful words to my mouth and they don't need to be uttered at all, but I fail to keep them back. Once they're out, that's it! No getting them back!
The power of our tongues can either build others up or tear them apart and create permanent damage. My encouragement through this devotional is that we will all really work harder at controlling what we way and knowing how to say things and when not to say things. I know we'll be learning this lesson all throughout life, but we can become better as we come to love Christ more and be careful of the words we use toward each other. Especially during the times of frustration and discouragement.
By: Zach Wood
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Grabe tinamaan ako dito. From time to time, "my stupid mouth has got me in trouble", ika nga ni John Mayer. Hey Affie, remember Maita? She's one classic example. And then there's my ex's family. I sent Tita Ruth a long text regarding my frustrations about how they support my Teejay (my ex). La lang, I had enough na kasi. Every night, when my ex and I talked on the phone, there was not a single time that she didn't cry. She had a problem kasi. Well anyway, based on what Teejay has told me, I felt that her parents aren't doing the right things to support her. I have been always involved in matters regarding Teejay. Tita Ruth and I have always talked about her, and how to help her cope up. But the thing is, I saw that instead of helping her recover, some of the things that her parents do was detrimental. Yeah, they were supporting her financially, but I saw some inappropiate things that were being done, which could have made matters worse. Well anyway, to make the story short, I because of that, I texted Tita Ruth a very long message containing harsh words such as, "It's time to act as parents, not as mere financers." Ang sakit on the part of the mom diba? kaya ayun, Tita Ruth, whom I have already considered as my second mom, (and halos ampunin na rin ako nun... mahal na mahal ako dati nun eh...) and I has never been that close again. Well, at least ngayon, feeling ko mahal paren ako ng family nya. :)
Recently, cguro a few months ago, (Jeff Panelo knows this...) when my mom went to Cebu for three days, me and my Tita talked to our helpers. My tita couldn't control herself anymore (kse kupal talaga yung mga katulong) so she decided to walk away. I, instead of walking away, still "talked" to them. I guess my dad just let me do the talking cause he knows what I can do when my tongue starts to do its work (in short, my dad want's to get rid of them, he just couldn't coz of my mom). So there, after that night, umalis na yung pinakakinaasaran ko na katulong, without my mom knowing. Buti nalang, my mom didn't take it against me, and she just said that it was bound to happen anyway, and that just should learn to control my temper.
La lang... sobrang tinamaan ako sa email... hehe obvious ba???
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| Yehey!!! |
[18 Nov 2004|04:16am] |
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I'm supposedly sleeping right now... But why am I writing this entry??? KASI ALA AKONG PASOK MAMAYA!!! hehehe... So meaning, I have a very long weekend, cause I don't have classes every friday! YEHEY!
Well anyway, Went to power-up. After training, Went to Aysee with Jep, Paul, April and Suzanne. Originally, the plan was just to eat dinner there. Jep wanted to drink beer, so he ordered one. While eating, Paul, out of nowhere, asked Suzanne some... ummm... "not-too-personal" questions. In short, he put Suzanne into the hotseat. After Suzanne, since I was seating beside her, they now started to interrogate me. Well before letting my heart out, I first ordered San Mig Light. Paul followed, and Suzanne ordered her Red Horse (Maton pala to!!!) I answered them honestly. But Paul kept on asking questions that are not that easy to answer. Because of that, I lighted up my first cig for the past 2 days! hehe... so there, I began to open up. (Well, I guess most of you know that I'm not really secretive at all... konting pilit lang...) In that inuman session, I learned a lot from them, especially from Paul. Well thanks for your insights guys! I guess it's up to me now...
As said by Paul, I'm currently in a trap where most guys fall into. That sucks... But there's only one thing left to do... I just dunno when to do it... Maybe sometime soon...
Anyway, overall it was a really good inuman session... Dami chismis! hehehe...
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| I'm from Venus!!! kaya pala ganito kulay ko! hehehe |
[18 Nov 2004|04:00am] |
You Are From Venus |
You love all forms of beauty. You love dressing up and anything luxurious.
A social butterfly, you're incredibly popular and a great host.
You're known for your fairness and affection. And as a frind to all.
Careful though! You're desire to please may make you too willing to conform.
Be yourself. Focus on what matters to you. You'll be all the more popular for it.
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[15 Nov 2004|02:52am] |
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Right now I just wanna kill myself. I hate myself for being me. I hate my personality. I hate myself for being too dependent on other people. I easily get myself attached to other people and i hate myself for being like that. I hate myself for expecting other people to do things that they are not really obliged to do. I hate myself for being emotional. But there's nothing I can do about it. I am like this because of my past experiences, because of the friends that I used to have, because of how my parents raised me. The only thing that I can do right now is to type whatever I can type right now, type whatever's in my mind, and cry while i'm thinking of the friends I lost because of my friggin' personality.
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| Going nuts!!! |
[12 Nov 2004|10:29pm] |
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I just got home. God it was so traffic!!! it took me an hour and a half just to get to school from my place!!! (normally it only takes me 40 mins, with traffic!!) well anyway, because of that, I wasn't able to pay for my tuition. meaning, i have to go back to school tomorrow early morning just for that!!! well because of the traffic, and the thought that i have to go to again tomorrow, i went ballistic. For a moment, i was out of my wits. well, once again, i wasn't able to control my temper. Well luckily Vida was there, and her cigs have definitely helped me to settle down... haaay...
Well after that, i went straight to the chorale rehearsals. I think with the our rate right now, we can do good in the upcoming competition (nov. 19). Hopefully, this time we'll be able to get on the winning track. Our last competition was frustrating. We know that we could have at least taken third place. But the thing is, we went over the time limit by 2-3 mins. And in a timed competition, that has taken a lot of our points... that was so frustrating...
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| What the fuck!!! |
[12 Nov 2004|12:57am] |
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This sucks... I had to rewrite this journal entry... Fuckin' A, when i tried to update my LJ, my stupid internet connection failed, so there, my journal entry wasn't saved!!! grrr...
well anyway, I just got home... Went to school for the chorale rehearsals, then enlisted for my 2 remaining subjects. After that, i went to power-up with crissie... Jan wasn't able to make it to power-up (again) cause she had to go with her mom somewhere... or so she said... honestly, i think that she wasn't able to make it cause she went somewhere with her friends, maybe to watch a movie. I think she didn't tell me the real reason coz she knew that it would upset me, cause she already told me last night that she's gonna climb for sure. Oh well, maybe i just have to give her the benefit of a doubt.
Going back, after training, went to Chowking with Jax and Crissie. Jax just bought food for his mom then went straight home. God the service was so bad!!! i guess they had to little crew for such a big restaurant. anyway, while waiting for Crissie's dad, as usual, we had nothing to do but to have a mini bonding session. hehehe...
Well What's up with me??? nuthin' new... Still the same... Still thinking of her... Damn!!!
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I'm planning to burn a CD entitled, "OC's OPM Hits"... here are the songs that i'm planning to compile:
1. Session Road - Suntok sa Buwan (Acoustic)*
2. Imago - Taning*
3. Kitchie Nadal - Wag na Wag mong sasabihin
4. Stonefree - Listen (acoustic)
5. MYMP - A little bit
6. Bamboo - Masaya
7. Rivermaya - Balisong
8. Passage - You won't see me crying (acoustic)
9. U-turn - It's You
10. MYMP - Waiting in vain
11. Kitchie Nadal - Run
12. Freestyle - Once in a lifetime*
I haven't gotten Freestyle's Once in a Lifetime yet, and Imago's Taning. I already have Suntok sa Buwan, but not quite the version that i'm looking for. In case of taning, i guess getting a decent version would be near-impossible. I'm planning to have at least 18 songs for my CD. Well guys, any suggestions on what OPM songs to download??? mga bago pls.... :D
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| Thinking of her... |
[11 Nov 2004|01:05am] |
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...na naman??? shit i'm back to my old ways. there was a time that i thought it's already over. maybe that was the case coz i was still a bit irritated during those times. but now that's not the case anymore. ewan... some already told me that i shouldn't waste my time on her. that I deserve someone better. despite of everything, why am i still like this? why am i not using my head? i'm not stupid, but i must admit i am acting like one right now. i dunno... i just can't get her out of my mind. i know her side, i'm not that insensitive. i know that i ain't got a chance, but i'm still like this. Shit... maybe i should juz tell her for this to be over. juz like what i did to Ria a couple of years back. haaay grabe... bahala na...
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i should quit smoking (Again???)... I think it's badly affecting me already... oh fuck... now that the 2nd sem's about to start. and talk about Pasadilla... fuck gud luck!!!
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I still can't get over what my so-called friend did to me. well maybe he has his own reasons for his actions. and maybe he's really sorry. but i just can't get over it. They say that i have the right to be infuriated. oh well, maybe only time can let me forget everything...
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| It's been a while... |
[10 Nov 2004|02:04pm] |
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...Since I last wrote here in my Livejournal. Hehehe yun tuloy, right now i dunno what to write anymore...
Anyway last november 5, while me and my friends were hanging out here in my house, celebrating my bday, one of our neighbors talked to me, sumthing about our car and his son who is sick... well anyway i didn't really understand what he was saying... I thought he requested me to move the car coz it might block the way of their jeep, which has his son in it, who juz came from the hospital. Well, as requested, I moved our car to a place farther from their house, and nearer ours. the next day, when i got home, my father told me that our neighbor requested us for our help coz they needed to bring his son to the hospital, for he has just had a stroke. WTF!!! so, instead of helping them, i might have just aggrevated the case. I know it's not my fault, but i feel guilty somehow. I didn't know. Right now, whenever I pass their house, i dunno... nahihiya ako... haaay ewan...
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oo nga pla, i just finished modifying my LJ... tnx blue_fairy83 for the website!!! u da best!!!
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